Tori Amos的白色冬天

我是個非常感性，又非常理性的人。
很多時候，我憑直覺過活，做出一堆旁人急跳腳、自己冒冷汗、還洋洋得意的決定。
也有很多時候，理性支配我的抉擇，很清楚的做出自己不一定喜歡，卻相當同意的決定。
生活也許就是一連串的妥協，跟耶誕一樣，從妥協中，走出一條自己的路，
總是看著事物美好的一面，並因此覺得快樂。

幾天前，正忙得心煩意亂時，聽到深夜的電視裡，傳來Tori Amos的歌聲。
久違了，這音樂。
剎那間，我的心整個靜下來，所有的暄亂都被掩埋，
跟冬天的白雪一樣，悄悄掉下來，落地無聲。
我安靜的聽完這首歌，睡著了。

進行中的耶誕特輯，其實還有很多有趣的新聞可以分享，
但今天，就讓我任性一下吧
只想聽歌，不想說故事道新聞，
有些隱藏在白色冬天裡的什麼，在歌聲中，娓娓流出來了，
昨天理性了一整天的我，今天讓感性出籠，按下play鍵，盡情跟著哼唱，
這才發現，這首安靜的旋律，原來就叫做Winter。

Winter / Tori Amos

Snow can wait I forgot my mittens
wipe my nose get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter
I put my hand in my father’s glove
I run off where the drifts get deeper
sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice “you must learn to stand up for yourself cause I can’t always be around”

he says when you gonna make up your mind
when you gonna love you as much as I do
when you gonna make up your mind
cause things are gonna change so fast
all the white hourses are still in bed
I tell you that I’ll always want you near
you say that things change my dear

boys get discovered as winter melts
flowers competing for the sun
years go by and I’m here still waiting
withering where some snowman was
mirror mirror where’s the crystal palace
but I only can see myself
skating around the truth who I am
but I know dad the ice is getting thin

hair is grey and the fires are burning
so many dreams on the shelf
you say I wanted you to be proud of me
I always wanted that myself

he says when you gonna make up your mind
when you gonna love you as much as I do
when you gonna make up your mind
cause things are gonna change so fast
all the white hourses have gone ahead
I tell you that I’ll always want you near
you say that things change my dear…